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I want to go to CCBC Essex for 2 years and major in business, but still take art classes. I want to transfer to Towson and major in Art Education and minor in Photography. I want to open a cafe place that has all kinds of crazy menus… one for vegans, one for vegetarians, one for diabetics, one for anything, one for people with braces. I want it to be cute and I want to live upstairs. And then I could be an art teacher, how cool would that be? yeaaaaah.
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yaaah, I’m sad. I’m reeeeally, really sad. I’m not so sure if it’s knowing what I’ve done and being disappointed in myself and disgusted with the other person. I don’t know if it’s knowing that my parents still aren’t too happy with me. I don’t know if it’s knowing mommma gerri’s in the hospital right now and I can’t be with her. I’m just really upset. And me being upset is hurting the way I am with people. I really do wish I knew what was wrong with me. But I just don’t. I think I just want to fast forward a few years. I just wish I could save my money. Everything just feels soooo downhill right now. I can’t help it. I just can’t. I hate seeing that stupid KID be faithful to a skank when he never was to me. I don’t want to sound condescending at all, but I am a good girl. I don’t drink, smoke, party, have sex all the time, and I don’t act like a bitch to everyone. I want him to understand. He needs to choose a girl and stick with her. I don’t like him anymore, seriously. At all. I have no feelings towards him. I’m numb to him, for real. And I thought that this would make me feel/look like a slut. But it doesn’t. I did nothing wrong. Life goes on. Someday I’ll find someone who will treat me well. I just think it’s weird that all of these girls know what kind of a person he is but still keep going back to him…. not me though. People like that don’t change. They never will. Believe me. I’m only being cordial to him for my second mama. I just can’t believe out of my seventeen years.. it happened so soon. I feel like every other girl now. I feel no different from them, ’cause how am I? I hate this so much. sooooooo much. I’m saaaaaaaaaaaad. But I just have to get over this feeling. I gave so much and got nothing. I need money right now. more than ever. I need to save for a computer, I need to save up for vacations coming up, I wish my bike’s tire wasn’t flat, I wish I had the one thing that was most sacred to me back. my cat’s biting my leg right now. there’s such bad people in this world.
